...very relieved.

Many months ago I had my first post-divorce relationship. It was fun while it lasted. It wasn't a forever thing, but it was as close as I've come. I recently found out that this lover is getting married. At first, I was shocked. He's not quite divorced yet. But wow, it's weird to me to think that people can move from lifetime commitment to lifetime commitment quickly. I'm happy I'm divorced and very, very, very happy I'm not still in the marriage I was in. But, in no way do I feel quite ready to make another lifelong commitment. And, I'm proud of myself. Might sound weird, but it would have been really easy to settle for this guy. On paper, he looked great, but he was just looking to get married. Not to get married to me necessarily and thankfully I realized that I wasn't looking for that for the longterm. Wow. He's not my first post-divorce boyfriend to go "husband" on me....just the first relationship. It just seems really fast.